Soul Mate  

You said that I didn't love you
How could you?
You whom I watched all through the night
Every night spent awake
To protect the part of you that I most loved
The part of you I would not let them take
Protecting it from the darkness
The darkness that reigned outside our warmly lit room
A home for which I fought
Often times alone watching your gentle lips
Glistening like grass on a chilly spring morn
The windows to your soul
Shaded from a nasty world
That tarnished and turned your innocents
The night still comes
And still I lay awake
Wanting, wishing hoping
You'll make it home safe
I would cry still if I could
But the tears were all spent
And to not much good
Now I write by candle light
Afraid of the night
The beasts that lurk and lay their snares
Blind as a bat and careless as a cat
I am laid bare
I seek the blissful unaware
From all the cares
The snickers and stares
While I climb those stairs
Alone
Leaving you behind
Lost to fate
I am slowly dying and I simply can't wait
For God has not yet gotten to my prayers
I often wonder if he shares
My obscure ideas on life
Fairy tales and knights
Heroes and Maidens
Perhaps it is with so many Christians he is laden
Is there a goddess that might hear my call
As my heart sobs and I feel it is time to end it all
That is the one thing I cannot do
For it is true
I hear her in my soul
I love you I love you
Is how she always starts
Sometimes she goes on in the day
Telling me that everything is going to be ok
Just wait, have faith
And enough courage till the pain passes slowly away
Somehow I hear this from so far away
and still I've tarnished our coming meeting
because I simply could not wait.

© 2006  Joe Blow